The 8 days training program led by Ruthellen Josselson was a hard journey for me. Over 70 people formed the big and complicated group. Everyone is group therapists with different professional level. Ruthellen was the transference of our mother. I had mine too. Like, there was one night, I drove her and other two people to restaurant. After parking the car, I found the table where they were sitting. The "mother" was surrounded. I couldn't attract her attention. I was the child who got ignored when I had "sisters". And what I did was just to understand my "mother".
See, the same problem - cannot express anger. However, if the solution is "expression, awareness, feeling, understanding, acceptance, integrating", I arrived at the forth step.
The next day after the training, I got seriously sick. I threw up a lot and had loose bowels too. That might be a venting process for me? I did feel exhausted.
Maybe freedom is coming next.